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I spent a decade of my young life trying to lose weight so I could feel good enough. I thought if I could lose enough, maybe I could be a model. I decided that losing weight and being a model was my “purpose”. Maybe guys would see me as dateable or maybe even lovable. Maybe this culture would see me as worthy. . I dieted constantly. I restricted and starved and obsessed. I binged on close to 10,000 calories in a sitting and I threw up sometimes 8 times a day for over a year. I used drugs I heard would make me skinny. I nearly went to the hospital for eating too many sugar-free candies. I numbed with alcohol and substances. I let men decide if they liked me, not if I liked them. I responded how I thought I “should” because I had no idea how I actually felt about anything. I didn’t live in my body. How could I live in it if it had so betrayed me? Or had I betrayed it? And at the end of the day, at the end of the decade, I was still more or less the same 5’10 size 14 woman. Just exhausted. . In 2011 I read a book I saw on @oprah by @geneenroth called Women, Food, and God. It felt revolutionary to consider not being on a diet but I’d tried everything else. I surrendered. I quit the rules and had my first experience of intuitive eating (though there were many more years of learning to follow). I didn’t lose weight. I also didn’t gain weight. It occurred to me that for a decade I had been putting nearly every ounce of my energy into my passion for weight loss and here I was doing none of that with the same exact physical results. This was the beginning of my journey to a truly healing relationship with food (which I still learn and navigate to this day). . Oh, and guess what happened a few months after that dieting surrender moment on a very normal afternoon at an ATM in LA... I was approached by some modeling agents who asked if I’d ever considered plus size modeling. I was the perfect fit at the exact place that my body naturally settled. They wanted me exactly as I was. To this day, this remains one of my greatest life lessons. The reminder that when we try to be something we’re not, we block ourselves from being exactly who we are meant to be. ❤️
Danika Brysha je jednou z nejlépe placených modelek, hned po Gigi Hadid a Mirandě Kerr. Snaží se promovat ideu zdravého stravování a sebelásku. Na těchto principech založila značku "Model Meals", která doručuje domů zdravá nutričně vyvážená jídla. Spolupracuje se značkami jako Forever 21 a Kohl's.